Friday, May 27, 2011

Revisiting the crossroads

Almost 1 year since I joined A-Levels in MCKL. And it’s 2009 all over again.


Seeing fellow classmates flying away already, to Wisconsin, to Waterloo, you know who-lah… While I’m thinking of where to go, which uni to apply for Fall 2012 intake.

Come to think of it, maybe A-Levels wasn’t the right choice after all.


The reason I gave when involving myself in this, I said to myself, “To keep my choices open, to let me decide what to study then.” Until now, Physics is yeah still my general choice, but which field? Solid state, materials, nuclear, or astrophysics? Recently I contemplated another field of astronautical engineering. It’s about learning specifically how to build systems, vehicles, machines, bases that are in outer space.



The Large Hadron Collider in CERN, Geneva

Or this?


In another note : This was what that was going to be the International Moon Base, as part of the Constellation project by President George Bush. It included ambitious plans to Mars, “and beyond”, making it a stepping stone to conquest of the solar system. Of course, Obama shelved the project. Naturally, it was also my own concern going with the plan to pursue astronautics.

Can’t believe that Bush actually had an idea that I supports. Damn you Obama.

Not many offered this program, often confused with aerospace engineering a.k.a rocket science. And this is very specific, for the likes of me who is a jack-of-all-trades-master-of-none. Also I know my own brain wiring system, which is not really flexible – maybe with this degree I can only function in the likes of NASA, JPL, ESA, JAXA, Planetarium negara lol.

Really admire those who, when asked, can state out straight without doubt – “Actuarial Science!” the common Chinese reply.


Chinese for Actuarial Science - 風險管理與精算

Family is not really rich too, typical remedy is to send the eldest to study fields with high pays, so that can help in financing brothers and sisters in tertiary studies too. So am I too idealistic already here? Might as well study Chemical Engineering then follow Pa’s footsteps digging out rotten dinosaur juice.


And things after A-Levels not exactly cheap either. The other reason for A-Levels is “if get good results can get scholarship mah!!” but now not so. Reality has set in, and actually it’s easier to get scholarship at SPM level! No one looking at your uglier Pre-U grades (not my problem….yet) and seeing your extracurriculars. All that mattered in those days are the A+’s. Not to mention JPA Ivy League fund is recently rumoured to be no more, as if Ivy League so easy to get into.

Is it a beeline to USA? Or making my life easier, go with the schools’ UCAS and to UK which is more expensive? Or an ADTP might be more cost-sensible in the long run? Or local universities?


Just for lolz :-


Cancer update from John hopkins *read at your own risk*

This I received from email. Usually I just delete it, but for this the topic is quite useful, apparently and makes no harm to spread it. Also curbs some misconcepts about cancer, e.g. it being a virus, transmittable and so on.

Oh and I just finished Fallout 3 lol. Read on if you don’t want to end up like this :-



Johns Hopkins Update – Very Good Article
Cancer Update from Johns Hopkins :
1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer 
    cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have
    multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients
    that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after 
    treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the
    cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable
2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a 
    person's lifetime.
3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer
    cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and
    forming tumors.
4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has
nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic,
    but also to environmental, food and lifestyle factors.
5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing
diet to eat more adequately and healthy, 4-5 times/day and by including supplements will strengthen the immune system.
6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing
    cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells
    in the bone marrow, gastrointestinal tract etc, and can
    cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.
7.. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars
    and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.
8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often
    reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of
    chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor
9. When the body has too much toxic burden from
    chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either
    compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb
    to various kinds of infections and complications.
10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to
      mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy.
      Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other
11. An effective way to battle cancer is to starve the cancer
      cells by not feeding it with the foods it needs to multiply.

a. Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal, Spoonful, etc are made
with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute
     would be Manuka honey or molasses, but only in very small
     amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in
    color Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.
b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the
    gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting
    off milk and substituting with unsweetened soy milk cancer
    cells are being starved.
c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based
diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little other meat,like chicken. Meat also contains livestock
    antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all
    harmful, especially to people with cancer.
d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole
    grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into
    an alkaline environment. About 20% can be from cooked
    food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live
    enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to
    cellular levels within 15 minutes to nourish and enhance
    growth of healthy cells. To obtain live enzymes for building
    healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most
    vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw
    vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at
    temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C)..
e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high
    caffeine Green tea is a better alternative e and has cancer
    fighting properties. Water-best to drink purified water, or
    filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap
    water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.
12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of
      digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the
      intestines becomes putrefied and leads to more toxic
13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By
      refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes
      to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the
      body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.
14. Some supplements build up the immune system
      (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals,
      EFAs etc.) to enable the bodies own killer cells to destroy
      cancer cells.. Other supplements like vitamin E are known
      to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body's
      normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or
      unneeded cells.
15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit.
      A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior
     be a survivor. Anger, un-forgiveness and bitterness put
     the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to
     have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy
16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated
      environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to
      get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen
      therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer

1. No plastic containers in micro.
2. No water bottles in freezer.
3. No plastic wrap in microwave..

Johns Hopkins has recently sent this out in its newsletters. This information is being circulated at Walter Reed Army Medical Center as well. Dioxin chemicals cause cancer, especially breast cancer. Dioxins are highly poisonous to the cells of our bodies. Don't freeze your plastic bottles with water in them as this releases dioxins from the plastic. Recently, Dr Edward Fujimoto, Wellness Program Manager at Castle Hospital , was on a TV program to explain this health hazard. He talked about dioxins and how bad they are for us. He said that we should not be heating our food in the microwave using plastic containers. This especially applies to foods that contain fat. He said that the combination of fat, high heat, and plastics releases dioxin into the food and ultimately into the cells of the body. Instead, he recommends using glass, such as Corning Ware, Pyrex or ceramic containers for heating food. You get the same results, only without the dioxin. So such things as TV dinners, instant ramen and soups, etc., should be removed from the container and heated in something else. Paper isn't bad but you don't know what is in the paper. It's just safer to use tempered glass, Corning Ware, etc. He reminded us that a while ago some of the fast food restaurants moved away from the foam containers to paper The dioxin problem is one of the reasons.
Please share this with your whole email list.........................

Also, he pointed out that plastic wrap, such as Saran, is just as dangerous when placed over foods to be cooked in the microwave. As the food is nuked, the high heat causes poisonous toxins to actually melt out of the plastic wrap and drip into the food. Cover food with a paper towel instead. 

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


image5000 pageviews from July 2010 to now!

I started this blog in March 2008 and have never abandoned it since. It is my channel to speak out, rant and… hmm… maybe just for the sake of writing. Sometimes it is a diary, sometimes I imagine it as a column in a great newspaper called the Internet. And once in a while, my so-called poetry instinct wakes up and you can see jumbled up words that rhymes but makes no sense, do bear with it though as sometimes things just have to be let out, once in a while. 

Although I can say that maybe 5% of the pageviews are mine, when I’m Qc-ing my blog, changing themes, or even reading my own posts :D such a narcissist. But still that makes 4750 pageviews over the 10 months, and I owe it to you readers!

Stay tuned for more posts of a little bit of everything, from life as a fukkenmathsstudent, to astronomy, to some make believe poetry, to teh tarik commentaries (accompanied by insomnia), to current issues, et cetera and bla bla bla. Taking your time to follow my blog will tell me that another reader is interested in my writing. Comments are MOST welcomed as that means that you have read my post through and thought about it in your head.

In short, happy reading!



Sunday, May 22, 2011

Hey, you’re awesome

A million thanks to someone I conversed with the other day that gave support on my quest to go to USA for tertiary studies. And mentioned the good things about me and even supported me to try the Ivy Leagues. Honestly it made me feel a tad more confident :D

I don’t know if it is because of being the eldest in the family, that parents naturally have high expectations on us; or the Chinese school environment that does not really encourage encouragement and support, or just that I didn’t really get to know many of those people that is good at making your lives a little happier. For a while everyone seems to live a much better, much livelier, much meaningful lives compared to mine. Until one day someone stepped in and said, “Hey, you’re awesome”.

That is something I like about MCKL, something you will never get in that shithouse I was rotting in the last 5 years. Heck, even in the sweathouse of Rembau I do get complimented once or twice compared to none. So, over the years the shit from that shithouse get stuck in my nerves and I’m not really able to give compliments, so forgive me if I dished out painful comments to you before. I’m still working on it, and by the way yeah, MCKL is awesome!

Constructive criticism is another thing similar to compliments, they are also things that I’ll have to work on, in both receiving and giving.

The other day Miss Veronica, our education counsellor called me and mentioned that I have a chance to get into the Ivies, provided that I maintain my results. It left my face glowing for the whole day.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011


In days like this e.g. the night before exams, after the preparation, after the checking of stuff, ID and equipment to bring tomorrow, I couldn’t help but wander about the future, and what it holds for me.

Not that I’m being conceited, but before the thought about the world or the evolution of mimosa pudica sp. in 10 years, I have my own self to worry about.

From my experience so far there are quite some end-of-plot sudden twists that happened every other year. The almost 100% decision to ADTP when suddenly it turned 360 degrees to A-Levels at MCKL. The almost 70% Pa’s transfer to overseas that didn’t happen, for a while I thought I would leave Malaysia already and is happily imagining the prospects and experience overseas. The fucking B+ in my SPM Bahasa for (not lan sii lah but just lamenting) No 1 in BM Essay in school, not to mention not a B before SPM. Even the move from my hometown Kerteh to Kajang was quite sudden too, for a while (again) I was imagining cycling to the nearby secondary school everyday.

So, does this hints of a sudden change in my current aim, the United States? Already I have grown up and stop dreaming of Caltech, haha. But if I get a nice score on SAT, I’d allow my dream to go on a little longer :D Exam this round is composed of 4 different ones, Edexcel, SAT, Monbukagakusho(MEXT) and IELTS in July. By some miracle if I were to score good in MEXT and survive the cuts in the interviews, I’d be landing at a Japanese U instead, and save a lot of $$. So the current view is 50% US, 30% UK (cos it’s too damn exp), 5% Japan, others local (Yo Gah Chun). Hmm, I wonder if UM accepts A-Levels ‘cos I really wanna join the fun at the Makmal Fizik Angkasa, though better if I can go in JPL haha.

And when I look back 10 years later, what will I be thinking then?

PS Meanwhile enjoy the song Secret Base ~Kimi ga Kureta mono~ (10 years after Ver.) The lyrics are also meaningful and matches the mood… if you’re interested.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011


You are here for a reason. By mercy of The Anthropic Principle, if you are here, then there must be a reason why you are here, and therefore you are here for a reason.

Forget that crap. Just remember that you are here for a reason.

Lately I’ve been seeing some people cracking and crumbling lamenting why am I here, what does the world need of me, etc etc etc. I dunno if it’s exam-related or just coming-of-age blues, but it sure makes me feel guilty of leading my currently (largely) worry-free life. By the way I’m human too, and sometimes I also wonder what is the significance of life, etc bla bla bla, those kind of questions only adolescents have the time, energy and the hormones to think about. 

But don’t fret, don’t worry! While you see your peers having a great time playing sports outside, scoring some championships or so, take a look at yourself and you realise that while you are looking out of the window you are playing your piano, with a skill so high that you can even continue playing without paying attention! :D

While you are in front of the computer, viewing some video of a band comprising your classmates and you wonder why aren't you in the fun too. Take a look at your desktop, and you see that tiny little txt document that contains your DIY learning of the C++ programming language. With a subtle reminder of success does not come without hard work, you brought out your programming book and begin constructing the next big thing in computers.

To end this I give you a classic by Liang Popo (Jack Neo, Singaporean director), it’s in Chinese so sorry for those who don’t under, but the melody itself is soothing and somehow gives the feeling of ‘don’t worry, everything’ll be all right’. Enjoy.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Lenz’s Law

You might be familiar with the electromagnetic maxim “The current induced in a solenoid moves in such a direction that it opposes the motion that caused it”.

Now take it a step further, “Anything you do, there is something that opposes it”. And there you have the truth of the universe.

MCKL is (in)famous for its holiday-exam combination, there never was an exam followed by a holiday. Instead we have holiday then exams, or holiday and exams all mixed up together, like this time where both holiday and exams starts next week. Unfortunately, I entered the wrong mode as soon as classes ended on 12.30p.m. on Friday.

1230 HRS
1530 HRS

Yeah, when I should be quietly doing my SAT book, A-levels exam or whatever, right at this moment I’m smashing away at the keyboard writing a blog post for readers that doesn’t include my examiners and paper-markers. Well, I can think of this as essay practice but with this kind of writing I don’t even dare to imagine my Writing score.

Here is another example of a pre-study syndrome that affects me a lot :-

Especially that cleaning part.

Actually, I dunno whether it applies for you, but the same thing also happens to me in gaming. When it’s the start of the holidays I don’t bother to play a new game, which I bought during exams and took sneak peeks on it in between cramming for exams. I’ll just laze around, watch TV or do anything else but touch my game then. Only until the last few days until school starts then I’ll try the game out, get hooked and spent the last few days not resting and starts the new term half past dead.

So, how about you? :D 

Thursday, May 12, 2011


… is the name of a song by Jay Chou that was very much popular in my school days. Uh, most of his songs were popular too, and that was the era of the Taiwanese occupation on young chinese malaysians. Sekarang sudah jadi Korea pulak.

Stumbled across this song last weekend. Like flipping through old books, this song suddenly have quite some meaning to it that now I can’t erase it out of my head. Call it 5 years too late, but if this can hold the testament of time then it must really have some value to it, that’s how I think things are.

Haruki Murakami, my newest escapade author. Kafka on the Shore is still in my bookshelf, recently I finished another book called “Hard-boiled wonderland and the end of the world”. I don’t want to spill the beans, but it is real good too! If you are interested in something alternative do read this.

not the real cover but a DeviantArt creation, i think this would look good too!

The long awaited rain casts a cool feeling into everyone, to much relief of my stuffy nose and sore throats. Sit back and relax to this titular song, and reminiscice the days when it was hazy in May (2005 mega haze in Malaysia)

Thursday, May 5, 2011


Alert! *very important message*
by CHRONO13 (pseudonym),

I never knew that there was such a syndrome so-called the Further Maths Students Syndrome (FMS) caused by two different viruses called the FUK_FMS and the FMS_FMS virus.

And above all there were three sub-species of them, the Furthermaths students, the fukkermathsstudents, and the fukkenmathsstudents. Ratio, 100:1:10.

Yeah, there are differences.

The furthermathsstudents are those who carry the name tag of the “FMS” syndrome but never really suffered from the symptoms due to the more passive nature of the FMS-FMS virus. They carry the tag but went on relaxing around college, quite active and besides the occasional homework symptoms going on, they go on living their lives like normal college students does.

Yeah, like normal college students does –>

The other type, the fukkermathsstudents are those who carry the FMS Syndrome too. The FUK_FMS virus is a very violent version of the FMS virus, always causing the “Homework” symptom to appear on the inflicted. BUT, their genes have codes that favours more wire production in the frontal lobe so that there are more cores to handle the processes inflicted by the symptom efficiently, so that no matter how severe the symptoms onset, they will dispel and dispose of it in no time. Usual behaviours vary for this group of patients, some may  be extremely active, in the other hand some of them enjoys the symptoms and wants more.

The last type will be the proverbial fukkenmathsstudents. These FUK_FMS patients are the most unfortunate ones – their processor cores are lesser than the fukkermathsstudents, their systems needs more time to activate the mechanism to dispel the symptom and leads to overheating leads to higher resistance in the connection wires leads to increased power loss leads to fatigue leads to accelerated ageing.

The so-called cure named “Practice makes perfect” is actually a myth, you also know from the milk formula advertisment that after certain age in early childhood the no of DHA, RA or whatever A which is the wire connections in your brain, it just keeps on dropping. Most they could manage is to remember past cases, and try to apply it in a new situation.

There is no cure for this disease, however the virus have a usual lifespan of about 1.5 – 2 years. It is known to mainly target adolescents aged 16-20. Method of spreading is usually through the mouth and ears, and groups of higher risk are those Chinese adolescents, and those who are exposed to the Chinese school environment. As the disease subsides, lingering side-effects may include arithmatophobia or the reverse arithmatophilia, accelerated ageing, insomnia or hypersomnia, hikkikomori – syndrome, myopia et cetera. So far no cases of death has been reported, however similar cases like the UET (University Entrance Test) syndrome reported quite an alarming fatality rate.

Please repost this to your loved ones if you care about them, so they are aware of the Further Maths Students Syndrome and have higher chances of avoiding it. ♠

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Monday, May 2, 2011


… of the grey matter, of the talents in Malaysia.

We so learnt in geography why people study overseas, “untuk mempelajari teknologi terkini untuk digunakan apabila pulang ke tanah air”, (to learn new, state-of-the-art technology and import it back home sweet home). Apparently this statement needs to be changed. Our brains are leaving, and leaving fast.

Yeah, our level of patriotism is mostly the deciding factor in this problem here. Not helping are the ‘social injustice’ issue which is always quoted, ‘career opportunities’ which is stunted back home, and blah blah…. Some people may miss home so much when they study overseas, until when they got their certs they run home straight away. But, we are mostly taught to stay on as long as possible, even after graduation, to work overseas. Bonus marks for permanent residency.

Tony Pua may ask us to come home and continue the good fight, but many of us see no reason to. I commend his spirit to fight for our nation and the people though. For many of us who aren’t fighters we see no reason to leave the comfy bed to sleep on the cold hard floor.

You may argue that ‘social injustice’ and ‘career opportunities’ are the same overseas as it is back home, since we are immigrants in their land. See the number of people living overseas, 1 million! Seems that there is not a problem, since 3.7% of our population are already living out of the country. And if you are old enough in Malaysia you’ll hear concrete stories of the ‘social injustice’, from your mother, teacher, aunties chit-chat, the Internet or otherwise. In fact many of us already treated it as a fact, set our highest aims to the great world outside, and looked back no more.

Of course, you can switch the perspective crazily inside out and claim that this is our country’s plan, with a feather taken from Showa Japan, for us to conquer the whole world!