Tuesday, April 3, 2018

愚人


失去的青春   怎能弥补
流逝的时光   怎能寻回

暖和的阳光   已经不再
无际的蓝天    已变黑白

昔日的志气    毫无意义
当年的梦想    已燃成灰

僵硬的身子    行尸走肉
苟且地偷生    人间失格

暮然回首
白了少年头
空悲切

Friday, January 19, 2018

午夜胡扯杂诗一首

离家出国两千天
六年没得过新年
读完学士用三年
约好了那是期限

初为了生活体验
独立生活好锻炼
美大学文凭一件
包前途无边无限

三年后又生意见
读个硕士甭给钱
五年后博士头衔
青春就这样被骗

如今弟妹也出外
大哥也不肯回来
家人除了爸妈外
野猫也被捡回来

五年还过得真快
乏味生活挺不耐
多半年硕士在手
是时间看看回头

到底是博士重要
还是归家更紧要
事业在哪发展好
希望世界能更小

近年来只领悟到
时间流逝果真快
不断想古人有道
子欲养而亲不在

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Meditation Through Writing

First, just so that I can remember this in the days to come - November 3rd, 2017 is the day I got my first new laptop, that I have purchased with my own money for myself - and I am liking it very much right now. In fact, typing on it is rather pleasant, and I have been using the laptop to continue my journey that is NaNoWriMo 2017 - with my next novel in progress, Memento Mori.


Compared to Blacktongue, this book is about a shade darker - telling the story of seeking the meaning of life, death, and everything in between. Without the historical backup to crank the words with, I had to take 'show, don't tell' to the extreme, fleshing out every single detail as I play a pretend-movie of the novel inside my head. Which is in fact, quite accurate on what I visualize this to be (in my head, not in the future) - some sort of a feature movie accompanied by no less than the soundtrack that has inspired this story, after all. 

It was the original project for Nano 2016, however apart from being so occupied by APS and other matters; I simply felt like it wasn't the right time to write about a novel like that yet - I didn't have the right experience. The year of darkness was the perfect time for me to gain the experineces needed to flesh out the excruciating details that are required for the novel - and also give it the current planned ending that does not invalidate all the character's suffering. This year, writing this book seemed natural to me. That is, if I can persevere through the end! 

This activity won't work though outside of November really, but I have found that meditation through writing - or at least taking other stuff off the mind and giving writing the 100% focus it needs, is a really rewarding activity and with a bonus that is at the end of the month, you get your own novel!